Decisions...

• I have a bad memory.
• I am always forgetting things.
• I can easily lose track of time and forget my meals.
• I am well known for being fickle minded.
• It has been a bad habit of mine since goodness know when.
• I have a hard time deciding on things especially if I want both as bad.
• I would rather jump off the roof of a tall building rather than decide on something quickly.
• I work better when I have ample time to think things through although I give myself a headache the entire time.
• When someone rushes me to do something it would always end in me forgetting about something important.

I love the person I have become.
I hate the person I am.
And I do not know which emotion is more potent.
I really need to do something about this...

Where Do I Belong...?

Taylor Swift : A Place In This World

I don't know what I want,
So don't ask me, cause I'm still trying to figure it out.
Don't know what's down this road,
I'm just walking.
Trying to see through the rain coming down.
Even though I'm not the only one,
Who feels the way I do.

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans,
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
Could you tell me what more do I need?
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah,
But that's okay.

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission,
But I'm ready to fly.

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

Oh, I'm just a girl,
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Oh, I'm just a girl..

Noel

Christmas is around the corner and I am so excited!!!!! This year, I'll be celebrating Christmas in Kampar with those sesat friends of mine and it is going to be so much fun! We have already decorated Shu's apartment. It looks awesome especially the Christmas tree with the present boxes underneath it. I just love to have an excuse to decorate something!

A lot of people have asked me why I am taking a science course when I love everything arts and craft. Well, to tell the truth, I don't know myself. I guess I'm just going along with the flow for now. See where it leads me in the future...

Another Ending,,,

Before I know it, the semester is almost coming to an end. And I bought some fishes for my room too! I hope they are going to be alright when I leave...


Here are pictures of my cute fishes! The most awesome one would be the fighting fish of course! But my other fishes are awesome as well! I was talking to my grandpa about fishes before Shu Ern and Sui Yen called me along to old town to get some. It was fun. The bigger fishes were bullying the smaller ones and I was really afraid that they are going to hurt them but I think they have finally settled down for now... I would love to get one or two more fishes soon after I am done decorating the tank!


Here's my fighting fish! It is called a halfmoon if I am not mistaken... It has a really pretty blue colour and it swims ever so elegantly! I really do like looking at it! One day I hope I can get a rabbit! Now that would be SUPER AWESOME! XD

I had a talk with Shu Ern when she came over to get some of our fish meds from me. I have never really had a talk like this with her before but it was good. =)



Guess what? We managed to surprise Melissa on her birthday. Of course she knows that something was going on when Calvin called her down that night before midnight but she did not think that we would do it in front of her house. The guys in the house next door were staring at us because we were so loud. Hehe...


And while we were at Ghany for supper that night, this guy here is very anxious over a football game. Look at his expression... Priceless... XD


And, our last CF meeting for this short sem... We had food and gifts exchange! Opening up the presents were fun indeed. Some get really special gifts while some got towels and shower gel. But it's all the thought that counts no?


Here would be Melodie and Kyle. For once, she towered over him. An accomplishment indeed... Kyle is amazed that such a thing happened...


And another really sesat picture of the night. Gale trying to act cute. When would he learn that cute is a word that cannot be associated with him no matter what? XD

Fiona and Derk...

I have been feeling unwell this week since Sunday. DK Shu asked me a lot of questions and after taking my temperature, told me that I have a fever and prescribed me some meds... I really hate taking medicine and was somewhat really dismayed that I had to take 2 panadols, 2 antibiotics and a very big Vit C pill... Urgh... Sheer torture! And I have to remember to take meds every 4 hours too... Sigh... I have to remind myself that it is for my own good every time the time arrives for me to swallow those horrible tasting things...

This sem, I had to deal with a lot of my own weakness and insecurities but I am glad I have all these good friends here for me all these time. I can't wait for more of our captainball and DotA sessions. Rain rain go away! Isabelle wants to go out to play!

Something To Think About...

I realised belatedly that while we were playing DotA, I was the only girl playing...

Well, to tell the truth, I think DotA is quite fun. Although I think I did 'ok' in the first game, I was totally pawned in the second one... 'Isabelle Killer' finally did his job of killing me multiple times till I get so fed up of waiting through the spawning period. Sigh...

A friend told me that I am pretty much a boy and that I am only a girl physically because I like anime/manga, I like playing games and well, I'm just not girly enough? But then again, is the society's old perception of masculinity and femininity stuck in our mind still? Must I be a girl that sits around and look nice, sew, does the house chores and cook?

I get to hang out with the guys today and it was really...different? Instead of just some normal exchange of pleasantries and jokes, there were some deep topic that were actually talked about. And although I am pretty much blur most of the time, it was interesting to listen to. It's like how I always sit around and listen to my dad talk to my uncle back home. Sure shows a person how childish she is when she listens to people her age talk about all these kinda things...

But I wouldn't mind hanging out with them again like this. I am not a girly girl, and I accept that. I enjoy games and I'd tag along more often to these sessions if they don't mind a newbie (I hate the word noob, just sounds so rude) like me going along... XD

The Surprises...

Took me some time and lack of a few good night sleep to get these done but at least it's worth it seeing the look on their faces. Glad you two liked the cards. Although rushed, they were fun to make. XD

Bunny Craftiness
Maybe I should start a small scale business on cards... What do you guys think? XD

Of Tired Eyes And A Lack of Sleep...

Goodness knows how long I've been in need of sleep lately... And I pulled another night finishing off some surprises. I'm dead tired and feeling slightly hungry as well. My class is in 4 hours time. I wonder if I could actually get some sleep... I'll post pictures of what I've been up to till so late with full day of class tomorrow from 8am to 6.30pm and a CF meeting at night as well when it's finally over and done with... I NEED REST!!!!!

Presentations All The Way...

It seems like I've got a lot to do lately and I hope I did not take up too much for me to handle... I can only pray and hope that God will help me with all the things I have to do this week... And, I should also remind myself more often that eating and sleeping is good... I seem to be doing very little of both lately... Sigh... Just a few slides I picked out from my Japanese presentation... We are supposed to make a teaching aid for kids... Enjoy...

One Down, Another To Go!

I just finished my sociology presentation on gender inequality this afternoon. Although, like always, I forget to state some points that I wanted to because I was so nervous I couldn't even breathe, it went ok I guess... *sigh* I hope it is enough... My Japanese midterm is tomorrow, wish me luck guys!


Gakuen Heaven... I saw the picture and I though, why not give it a try? There are enough cute guys in the anime. And gosh are they drool worthy indeed. A school for the elites, each and everyone of them have something they are good at at national level apart from being good looking. But I did not know that this is quite close to a yaoi anime, more of a shonen-ai one. And believe me, there's not even ONE girl in this anime!!!!! I was slightly disturb, just slightly XD, when I watched it, the eye candy helped remedy that, but the last episode blew me away... Go watch it if you wanna know what happened... Or get the anime from me. I'm more than glad to spread some shonen-ai around. XD

The Missing Piece

When something is amiss or when things are just not the same anymore, the picture that you thought is already perfect is now missing a piece. Where can it be found? Will the picture ever be complete again? So many factors to consider yet all are variables that will change without warning. Change is inevitable but sometimes it is not easy adapting to change.

I have been thinking of a lot of things today... Thinking of a problem I have been tackling for some time now but have yet to conquer. I hope this can change. It is painful thinking about it. What does it really mean to love your neighbour as much as you do yourself? I am still trying to figure that out. Committing to something leaves you vulnerable, it hurts. A lot. But if you don't then what are you? An empty shell? Is that what I am becoming now? Immersing myself in worldly things to get away from people and my feelings, is that really the answer? Please help me understand Your will... Help me live a life that is pleasant to You. Guide me through this My Lord...

Seeing Red? xD

When I opened this present, I have no idea that inside holds one of the thing I want most in the world! Bella's charm bracelet! With the wolf charm from Jacob, heart charm from Edward and the Cullen family crest! It is indeed a dream come true! Thanks to Josie for it SO MUCH! Love ya! Anyone going green yet!?

The pretty girls from today... Bee, Nelly, Beng and me!

I had a fun time today guys. Thanks a lot. And also to our 2 drivers, not in the pic, thanks for driving us around... xD I'm so tired now I think it's only gonna be pics for today... Haha...

Songs to listen to by Blue October :

Hate Me : Edward's Song in beginning of New Moon

Overweight : Jacob's Song

My Never : Jacob's Song in Breaking dawn page 345 "When I stared into her eyes, I saw everything that I'd been looking for in the park"

Sound of Pulling Heaven Down : Edward's song at the end of New Moon when he realised that he has a lot to do to make up for all his mistakes.

books... Books... And More BOOKS!

Today's spoils! xD AWESOMENESS!

And I finally bought the last book of the Twilight Saga! A little late I know... But I wanted the hard cover copy. So... Now I have this :

YAY!

Happy Mid Autumn Festival People!

Ahh... It's been a long time since I blog... It's not that I don't have anything to say, well, I just don't feel like blogging. Lets just say I'm not in the mood... And I do not like to write short posts if I can help it.

Tonight we went to Sunway Pyramid for Nandos! It was delish as always, as Nandos is one of my fave restaurant of all time. We walked around after that but did not manage to buy much.

I just saw this totally cute top at Forever21 though... xD


The only spoil I had for the day was this! Brisingr! Finally out in paperback... Dad bought it for meh!


We had fun playing lanterns and candles back home after dinner. It was hard work keeping the lanterns lit but then again the satisfaction of looking at the pretty flames and lights is good enough for us!






And finally, some Big Apple donuts acting our 'fake' mooncake... xD

Coming Back To The Heart of Worship...

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And i simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

*Chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
When it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much you deserve
Though i'm weak and poor
All i have is yours
Every single breath

I'll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

*Chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
When it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus

Hoarding Again

Haylee is a really cute bunny-inu-demon... XD And guess what? She's a Ruri!


Starlight because she is shiny and sparkly!


My pretty and golden Chrysta!


Cupcakes!!!!! <333

And lastly, the creme de la creme from Cafe de la Vie!

Heartaches...

OMG... I can't believed I watch the trailer for New Moon from ShuE's blog... Among the 4, New Moon and Eclipse would be the two i read the least. Mostly because in New Moon, Edward is hardly ever around and in Eclipse, Bella caused Edward so much pain it was really hard to read on. Now the New Moon movie is out again and THE 'phail' Robert Pattinson is going to make Edward look like some sort of a loser... Taylor Lautner does a much better job being Jacob Black... Even Kristen Stewart looks the role though I kinda think that her acting is lousy. I know I should not watch the movie because it is just an insult to the book but then again, I'd watch it just to criticize it. That's what I do anyway when my favourite books are made into movies... Gonna reread New Moon again just for the sake of stepping on the movie... This is gonna be another epic phail... XD

The hotness of Taylor Lautner with his hair cropped short.

Kristen Stewart as Isabelle Swan... I like this picture...

Nature's Colours

Looked through my photo album... Love the colours of these flowers... I have an obsession with flowers... I had to take pictures of them if I see any although the quality of my pictures are not that good but still...The flowers are so pretty I don't think I did them justice! They calms me down when all I see is red. I really need to do something about that temper of mine.