Kizuna

Gokusen is one of my favourite dramas of all time. I could watch it over and over again... Not just because it is a drama packed full of good looking guys (when I say packed, I mean SERIOUSLY PACKED), but because of the values of friendship shown in each and every episodes.

A class of delinquents, 3D is a terror for all the teachers in the school. Whenever anything bad happens, they will be the first to be blamed. The teachers of the schools have no shame in pointing their fingers to those students who are weak academically and look like troublemakers with dyed hair and accessories of all kinds on top of their normal school uniform. (which makes them different and cool in the first place I'd say...) These students hated adults and could not trust them. Until Yankumi arrives. She is the first teacher who has ever treated them fairly and faced them head on. And in time, she touched their hearts and gain their trust claiming that she will make sure that the entire class graduates as one.

The drama focuses on the trials faced by a few of the students and how Yankumi does everything she could to help each of them out. One of the thing she stresses the most is friendship. She will always be remind them that no matter what happens, their friends will always be there for them and believe in them. Although they do not always hang out together as a class except during school hours, although they have their own closer group of friends, although in time they will each walk their separate ways, whenever troubles come sniffing by, each and everyone of them rose to the occasion as one. Of course there are times when the class is split, individuals of different characteristics will definitely collide. Conflicts are inevitable. But the bond forged between them during that time, that place, will never disappear.

In the end, have they not gone through so many things together? The tears and laughter shared in the past will be brought forward as beautiful memories. Each one of them holding up another during painful times...

I too have great memories with a bunch of silly and idiotic friends that I treasure.

During NS...

Girls' Club Performances...

Science and Math Society...

Choir Competition...

Working in the Editorial Board...

And in CF...

みんな　わ　わたし　の　たいせつ　もの。。。


In the end, the bunny is still taller than the mushroom! XD

My New Love

Thanks to my VI choir daddy, I've fallen for his voice...
And he's cute too!

Words

Looking at my baby cousin i realised something. A child holds on to words like it is the most important thing in the world. But some adults gave their word to children and their words are like a silhouette of a breeze. Their minds are bent towards their own problems and pleasures. I wonder how many people have actually gave their word and forgot, oblivious to the child crying in the corner.

Flashback

I am so tired of facing the world lately that I would confine myself to my room and a few close friends. Being around them is so easy. I can talk without worries that I might say the wrong thing and I can just be me. And also, more importantly, they actually care what is going on in this boring life of mine. They listen. And they respond. I miss home and I miss my family. I need a longer break... I just don't know how much longer I can take this...

Was talking with some friends about nursery rhymes yesterday... Kinda brought me back to my childhood. Kinda.

This old man, he played one,
He played knick-knack on my thumb;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played two,
He played knick-knack on my shoe;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played three,
He played knick-knack on my knee;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played four,
He played knick-knack on my door;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played five,
He played knick-knack on my hive;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played six,
He played knick-knack on my sticks;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played seven,
He played knick-knack up in Heaven;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played eight,
He played knick-knack on my gate;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played nine,
He played knick-knack on my spine;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played ten,
He played knick-knack once again;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

Kareshi Kanojo no Jijou

A romantic drama that brought me on a roller coaster ride of turbulent emotions. It made me realise something though... I have always gotten angry over the characters who shut themselves off and leave everyone else in the dark about things while trying to deal with their problems on their own. Little did I realise that I have been doing exactly just that lately... To those who were worried for me during these few days, sorry for all the trouble I've caused and thank you... Thank you for bearing with me even though I have been acting like an idiot. Also, to the few who stuck to me and those who gave me advice, I am forever grateful to you for pulling me back from the dump that I had been in. It makes me happy to have friends who supports me and encourages me when I am down. *runs back to the flock*

Fire

The building is burning. Heat and smoke filled the air around me. Choking I try looking for a way of escape. But it seemed like I am cut off from every direction. Alone, all I can do is wait for help to come. But how many would actually dare to brave a burning building? Knowing the pain the fire could inflict and the suffocation due to lack of air, most would run away from it. We are drilled to run away from fire since young. Who in their right mind, with no firefighter experience, would run into a building that is so near collapsing?

Waiting means...

Steadfastness, that is holding on.
Patience, that is holding back.
Expectancy, that is holding the face up.
Obedience, that is holding one's self in readiness to go or do.
Listening, that is holding quiet or still so as to hear.

Nodame OST : Beautiful Sunset

To Sui Yen...

Dearest sister, although I did complain a lot about staying with you, (it was forcing me to take a sniff of your smelly bolster and making me give you a goodnight kiss that brought them up) I feel really blessed to have you by my side when I am going through trying times. You could not imagine how much better I have been after those few days of spending some quality time with you. Our late night talks and crazy times really did much good for me emotionally and spiritually. There are a lot of things I have decided to do but it was so hard to actually put into action. Your constant reminders of having faith in God and trusting Him with my life really did wonders to me. You kept saying I am really like you before and I hope that God would use this time of mine here in small town Kampar to mold me into a person worthy of Him. A person like you. I always keep my emotions in check, somehow I can never show others how much I love them and appreciate them, so when you showed me your blog post, I could do no more but to give you a short hug. But inside, I was really happy. Happy that you would actually took aside some time to think of me amidst your busy schedule, happy that for once, I truly felt that someone, aside from God, actually wanted me around. For as long as I had remember I have always had this little speck of loneliness deep inside my heart. Although I know that God is always here for me, I needed something more, something I can touch and feel. And because I am like this, He blessed me with great friends that I met here in Kampar who walked beside me and supported me. Thank you so much for being here for me. I missed the times we spent together too. But we are going to spend more time together after CNY k?

O Heavenly Father, thank you for everything...

Over the mountain and the sea
Your river runs with love for me
And I will open up my heart
And let the healer set me free
I'm happy to be in the truth
And I will daily lift my head
For I will always sing of when Your love came down

I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever

Reminders...

I need to be reminded :

• to always keep God's Word in my heart that I will never fall into temptation.
• to always think twice, thrice, four times before making a decision.
• to always put others first and not be so selfish.
• to stop indulging in self pity.
• to slow down and look at the people around me instead of rushing ahead in life.
• that no matter what, God loves ME! He truly does!
• that I am never alone... NEVER! God is with me!
  
• to come out of my own comfort zone, to learn, to grow...
  
• that God always has a plan for me. Let His Will be done.
• to be more confident in life.
• to be patient.
• to be silent.
  

Something's Wrong...

My mood has been going downhill lately...
I can't really get myself excited over anything. Even smiling takes up much more effort than it used to.
I can't focus on the work at hand. I have a lot of work due and I just can't get anything started!
The projects that I wanted to take up for myself are left hanging because I don't have enough equipment.
I'm losing my appetite. I can't finish off my meals and when I do I feel like throwing up.
My sleep time is seriously messed up, it was never normal to begin with. Naps in the afternoons and long late nights.
What is happening to me?
Seriously...

Numbers Count

When in doubt, go to a friend.
Two heads are definitely better than one.
Or three.
Or four!
When faced with confusion.
And conflicts.
And I just do not know which is the route I should take.
Friends can be so much more than a listening ear.
They remind you of your principles.
They strengthen you when you find yourself wavering.
I cannot imagine myself without them.
Now I am free from the bindings that hold me.
Feeling so light I almost felt like I am flying.
It's amazing how a few minutes can make such a difference...

Some Things Never Last.

My bubble burst.
It is just an illusion.
I am shaken out of my dream.
Into the truth that reality brings.
And truth really hurts...

Safety.

I open my eyes and it was dark.
A layer of some unknown substance surrounds me.
Enclosing me in it's protection.
I feel peace like never before.
But wait.
I cannot hear anything.
Not a single sound drifted into my ears.
Silence resounds in my head.
Not for the first time I realised there is no one else around.
I waited all alone.
A solitary figure.
Something creeps through my heart.
It is a feeling I know well.
A feeling of fear.
Trying to shrug it off.
Cut off from the world.
Although devoid of joy and laughter.
I am saved from pain and tears.
Is this kind of existence worthwhile?
When is it the right time for me to break out of this cocoon?
When will I finally have the strength to escape from this prison?
When is it my time to spread my wings and fly?
When can I finally suppress my fears and learn to trust again...?

Decisions...

• I have a bad memory.
• I am always forgetting things.
• I can easily lose track of time and forget my meals.
• I am well known for being fickle minded.
• It has been a bad habit of mine since goodness know when.
• I have a hard time deciding on things especially if I want both as bad.
• I would rather jump off the roof of a tall building rather than decide on something quickly.
• I work better when I have ample time to think things through although I give myself a headache the entire time.
• When someone rushes me to do something it would always end in me forgetting about something important.

I love the person I have become.
I hate the person I am.
And I do not know which emotion is more potent.
I really need to do something about this...

Where Do I Belong...?

Taylor Swift : A Place In This World

I don't know what I want,
So don't ask me, cause I'm still trying to figure it out.
Don't know what's down this road,
I'm just walking.
Trying to see through the rain coming down.
Even though I'm not the only one,
Who feels the way I do.

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans,
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
Could you tell me what more do I need?
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah,
But that's okay.

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission,
But I'm ready to fly.

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know.
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

Oh, I'm just a girl,
Oh, I'm just a girl,
Oh, I'm just a girl..