Dream Boys : Sad Song

Sad Song – Composed & written by Takizawa Hideaki

Why is it so quiet?
Even the light does not reach me
The flowers, smiles and even love seem to be distant events in my memory
Now...

I closed my eyes, and let the tears take over me
I should have known that they would shine
They used to be so gentle
Finally reaching the end
I cried out with all my might but I could not hear my own voice
Just like the moon

I closed my eyes, I am lost
The torn map and my heart became cold
The rain is hitting me as I remain scarred
I am breathing with just my pain and sadness

UPDATES On KAT-TUN World Big Tour 2010 DVD

T.T

LIMITED EDITION

[Specifications]

• Special package (Inner shell acrylic carton + packaging)
• Live photo booklet （32 pages）

DISC 1 : 63min

• OVERTURE
• N.M.P.(NO MORE PAIN)
• FALL DOWN
• Real Face
• ONE DROP
• Keep the　faith
• THE D-MOTION
• Love yourself～君が嫌いな君が好き～
• MAKE U WET～CHAPTER2～
• LOVE MUSIC
• Understandable～key of life～Shooting Star～FILM
• DON’T U EVER STOP
• RESCUE
• LIPS
• 愛のコマンド
• GOLD

DISC 2 : 104min

• 僕らの街で
• FARAWAY
• RIGHT NOW
• HELLO
• ONE ON ONE
• RABBIT OR WOLF?
• SWEET～LOST MY WAY
• Going!
• 喜びの歌
• WILDS OF MY HEART
• Peacefuldays
• PROMISE SONG
• N.M.P.(NO MORE PAIN)
• ROCKIN’ ALL NITE
• SMILE
• ハルカナ約束

DISC 3 :55min

WORLD TOUR 2010

• in KOREA
• in TAIWAN

REGULAR EDITION

[Specifications]

• Plastic box packaging
• Enclosed : 5 postcards featuring each member
  

DISC 1 : 83min.

WORLD TOUR 2010 in KOREA

• OVERTURE
• N.M.P.(NO MORE PAIN)
• FALL DOWN
• Real Face
• ONE DROP
• Keep the faith
• THE D-MOTION
• Love yourself～君が嫌いな君が好き～
• MAKE U WET～CHAPTER2～
• LOVE MUSIC
• Understandable～key of life～Shooting Star～FILM
• DON’T U EVER STOP
• RESCUE
• LIPS~愛のコマンド~GOLD

DISC 2 : 100min.

WORLD TOUR 2010 in TAIWAN 1

• 僕らの街で
• FARAWAY
• RIGHT NOW
• HELLO
• ONE ON ONE
• RABBIT OR WOLF?
• SWEET～LOST MY WAY
• Going!
• 喜びの歌
• WILDS OF MY HEART
• Peacefuldays
• PROMISE SONG
• N.M.P.(NO MORE PAIN)

WORLD TOUR 2010 in TAIWAN 2

• ハルカナ約束

credits to strawberry_gemm@lj

Flitting Through My Thoughts...

• Pushing someone down an unending stairway and watching them roll down while I'm laughing like a maniac would be cool
  
• Also, setting their car on fire would not be such a bad idea either but that would only cost them discomfort and frustration, I want to do some bodily harm, think lots of blood and gore
  
• Stabbing with a knife would be dirty, maybe something less bothersome would work better
  
• A gun then? Two shots to the knees to stop them from running away. Maybe one on the hand, then the last one through the brain
• Cut up the remains and feed it to the pigs
• Oh, and I won't rule out torture either. All those things with the toes and fingers and cutting off tongues...
• How about branding them with the word 'idiot' on their forehead? Too bad magic does not exist or I'd have given them the Cruciatus Curse and relish in their cries of pain

YES I AM A SADIST AND I HATE THIS COMPANY AND SOME OF THE PEOPLE IN IT SO MUCH TO THE POINT OF LOSING MY OWN SANITY. GIVE ME SOME CREDIT FOR BEING PATIENT THIS LONG. I'LL START WAR ON MONDAY.

KAT-TUN Calendar "2011.4 - 2012.3"

OMG I'm gonna be so broke...!


KAT-TUN Calendar "2011.4 - 2012.3"


Release Date : 10th March 2011

KAT-TUN School Calender 2011. Starts from April 2011. [Spec : A5-size] The calendars come housed in specially made boxes.

info taken from cdjapan

KAT-TUN World Big Tour 2010 DVD!!!

In anticipation of their new single 'CHANGE UR WORLD' coming out tomorrow, we have news of the release of the DVD from their 2010 tour! WHEE~

Released Date : 29th December 2010

Live DVD release from KAT-TUN featuring footage of their live performance "KAT-TUN WORLD BIG TOUR 2010" at Kyocera Dorm on August 22, 2010. They mainly sung songs from their latest album "No More Pain" and hit songs.

KAT-TUN World Big Tour 2010 [Limited Edition]

Limited Edition also features back stage footage of the concert in Korea and Taiwan. Includes three DVDs. Limited edition includes a 32-page booklet with live photos.

KAT-TUN World Big Tour 2010 [Regular Edition]

Regular edition features digest of their concert in Korea and Taiwan. Includes two DVDs and a bonus (details forthcoming).

info taken from cdjapan

Dear KAT-TUN fans out there,
Do support the boys and buy the original DVD!
Show them your love!

CHANGE UR WORLD

OMG, KAT-TUN's new single is finally announced! I can't wait to get it! I'm getting even more broke by the year end. But it's worth it! Finally some activities from the boys!

13th single from KAT-TUN! Lots of guitar riffs and Ray Luzier from KORN is on drums!

The song "CHANGE UR WORLD" is used as a theme song for "Going! Sports & News" a popular sport channel in Japan.

KAT-TUN "CHANGE UR WORLD" Limited Edition Type 1

• 1600 yen / Released Date : 2010.11.17
• 16p booklet included (subject to change)

1. [CD] CHANGE UR WORLD
2. [DVD] CHANGE UR WORLD (PV & Making of)
3. [DVD] Summer Premium Event 2010 Making of

KAT-TUN "CHANGE UR WORLD" Limited Edition Type 2

• 1200 yen / Released Date : 2010.11.17
• 6-page booklet included (subject to change)

1. CHANGE UR WORLD
2. REMEMBER : with Billy Sheehan (formerly of Mr. BIG) on bass!
3. Nito Man (Ueda Tatsuya)
4. GIRLS (NTT presented by Taguchi Junnosuke)

KAT-TUN "CHANGE UR WORLD" Regular Edition

• 1000 yen / Released Date : 2010.11.17
• 4-page booklet included (subject to change)
• "NEVER x OVER '-' IS YOUR PART" is a concept song where fans are supposed to sing the parts of the lyrics marked by "-" at concerts in order for it to become a complete song.

1. CHANGE UR WORLD
2. GIVE ME, GIVE ME, GIVE ME
3. NEVER x OVER- "-" IS YOUR PART-
4. CHANGE UR WORLD (Original Karaoke)
5. GIVE ME, GIVE ME, GIVE ME (Original Karaoke)
6. NEVER x OVER- "-" IS YOUR PART- (Original Karaoke)

info taken from cdjapan

Maid Maiden Tuesday & Sugar Addict

The goodies I hauled in at the Book Fest a few weeks back. =D And I got my collection of Kaoru books signed by her! Kochi kochi!

Bennett on Maid Maiden Tuesday.

Alivia on Maid Maiden Monday.


Wing on Kaoru's Cake House.

AND!!!!!

Helios and Mineko!!!!! OMG! These made my day.

Letters...

"Listen to me very very carefully.
I live in London, a gorgeous, vibrant, historic city that I happen to love living in.
You live in New York, which is highly overrated.
But since the Atlantic Ocean is a bit wide to cross everyday, swimming, boating or flying, I suggest we flip for it.
And if those terms are unacceptable, leaving London will be a pleasure, as long as you are waiting for me on the other side."

Call me a romanticist or whatever you like, but I am totally in love with this movie... The storyline is so moving... A truly heartbreaking youthful tale of a girl, brought forward 50 years into the future. Or maybe, a 65 year old woman, brought back to the past to when she was a teenager and met her one true love. And two others, Sophie and Charlie, are brought together by destiny, in this adventure they had undertaken to unite two lovers who could not be together due to circumstances in the past. Though Claire could not be with her Lorenzo 50 years back, she was reunited with him 50 years in the future. Time does not matter when it comes to love. As long as it is true what they had felt, it was never to be taken from them. I especially love the part where Charlie proposed to Sophie... With a proposal like that, who wouldn't melt?

"If it is true love, it is never too late"

Hakuouki One Coin Grande Figure Collection Box

Release Date : 28/10/2010
Maker : KOTOBUKIYA
Item Weight : 550 (g)
Material : painted, pre-assembled figure
Size : Non scale. Approximately 5cm.

Get it at cdjapan!

I Wish I Can Daydream All Day...

Instead, I have been reading about the Valence Bond theory and preparing for my finals on the 13th... Sigh...

Another Day...

After some studying, I unwind by reading Neko's super cute comic... All the characters are drawn chibi style... CHO KAWAII!

Kizuna

Gokusen is one of my favourite dramas of all time. I could watch it over and over again... Not just because it is a drama packed full of good looking guys (when I say packed, I mean SERIOUSLY PACKED), but because of the values of friendship shown in each and every episodes.

A class of delinquents, 3D is a terror for all the teachers in the school. Whenever anything bad happens, they will be the first to be blamed. The teachers of the schools have no shame in pointing their fingers to those students who are weak academically and look like troublemakers with dyed hair and accessories of all kinds on top of their normal school uniform. (which makes them different and cool in the first place I'd say...) These students hated adults and could not trust them. Until Yankumi arrives. She is the first teacher who has ever treated them fairly and faced them head on. And in time, she touched their hearts and gain their trust claiming that she will make sure that the entire class graduates as one.

The drama focuses on the trials faced by a few of the students and how Yankumi does everything she could to help each of them out. One of the thing she stresses the most is friendship. She will always be remind them that no matter what happens, their friends will always be there for them and believe in them. Although they do not always hang out together as a class except during school hours, although they have their own closer group of friends, although in time they will each walk their separate ways, whenever troubles come sniffing by, each and everyone of them rose to the occasion as one. Of course there are times when the class is split, individuals of different characteristics will definitely collide. Conflicts are inevitable. But the bond forged between them during that time, that place, will never disappear.

In the end, have they not gone through so many things together? The tears and laughter shared in the past will be brought forward as beautiful memories. Each one of them holding up another during painful times...

I too have great memories with a bunch of silly and idiotic friends that I treasure.

During NS...

Girls' Club Performances...

Science and Math Society...

Choir Competition...

Working in the Editorial Board...

And in CF...

みんな　わ　わたし　の　たいせつ　もの。。。


In the end, the bunny is still taller than the mushroom! XD

In The Future Maybe?

KAT-TUN's picture in Korea!!! Next would be their concert in Taiwan... Wish they would come to Malaysia...

Mushrooms!!!

After many days of being a hermit due to exams and watching anime, somehow, mushrooms seemed to be growing in my room! Oh dear...

Gift For Grandma

A small handmade cactus pincushion for my dear grandmother on her birthday.

My New Love

Thanks to my VI choir daddy, I've fallen for his voice...
And he's cute too!

NellyAnn

A friend who was always there for me... She knows just the right things to say to make me feel better. Not only did I listen to her problems but she listens to mine as well no matter now small it was. We're both stubborn and never gives in and when we get into a fight, it was real bad... It lasted for a year the last time... But we still got back on track. I miss you NellyAnn... So so so bad...

Words

Looking at my baby cousin i realised something. A child holds on to words like it is the most important thing in the world. But some adults gave their word to children and their words are like a silhouette of a breeze. Their minds are bent towards their own problems and pleasures. I wonder how many people have actually gave their word and forgot, oblivious to the child crying in the corner.

Flashback

I am so tired of facing the world lately that I would confine myself to my room and a few close friends. Being around them is so easy. I can talk without worries that I might say the wrong thing and I can just be me. And also, more importantly, they actually care what is going on in this boring life of mine. They listen. And they respond. I miss home and I miss my family. I need a longer break... I just don't know how much longer I can take this...

Was talking with some friends about nursery rhymes yesterday... Kinda brought me back to my childhood. Kinda.

This old man, he played one,
He played knick-knack on my thumb;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played two,
He played knick-knack on my shoe;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played three,
He played knick-knack on my knee;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played four,
He played knick-knack on my door;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played five,
He played knick-knack on my hive;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played six,
He played knick-knack on my sticks;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played seven,
He played knick-knack up in Heaven;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played eight,
He played knick-knack on my gate;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played nine,
He played knick-knack on my spine;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

This old man, he played ten,
He played knick-knack once again;
Knick-knack paddywhack,
Give a dog a bone,
This old man came rolling home.

Last Minute Work

And so I procrastinated and only did my slides for my English for Science presentation the day before I am supposed to present. The worse thing about the situation is the fact that I have yet to choose my topic for the presentation. Stressing about it for some time, I finally decided to talk about the Fibonacci Sequence. It seem to be an interesting enough topic and I hope that it would not bore the rest of the class... It was only after I did more research that it struck me. The golden ratio, which is the ratio of one of the numbers from the sequence against the number before it, is something really magnificent and mysterious indeed...

The Fibonacci Sequence starts with the number 0. Then, it continues with 1. The numbers after that are obtained by the addition of the two digits before it. And thus :

0, 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21, 34, 55, 89...

The sequence then continue on indefinitely. This progression signifies growth and the ability to learn from the things you did before to acquire the next piece of information.

A rectangle with the length and width of two numbers from the sequence is called the golden rectangle. This rectangle can be broken down into squares the size of the next Fibonacci number.


And when an arc is drawn into the squares, a pattern is formed. This pattern is a spiral. And it's significance is where it is found, not only in structures of the natural world but also in products of human culture.

Some examples of where the golden ratio is found :


The Parthenon


Human Finger Bones

Daisies, Shells, Pine Cones

Cauliflowers, Sunflowers

The Nautilus shell... Which, with every growth, adds on another Fibonacci number...

These are just seen in small scale in our daily lives, but directly above us in the vast universe, there are also galaxies that follows the golden ratio. Amazing indeed huh?

This ratio is like a blueprint. It appears to be the trademark of a designer. The proof of a creator. Something left behind indicating the one who was there. The fingerprint of God...

Kareshi Kanojo no Jijou

A romantic drama that brought me on a roller coaster ride of turbulent emotions. It made me realise something though... I have always gotten angry over the characters who shut themselves off and leave everyone else in the dark about things while trying to deal with their problems on their own. Little did I realise that I have been doing exactly just that lately... To those who were worried for me during these few days, sorry for all the trouble I've caused and thank you... Thank you for bearing with me even though I have been acting like an idiot. Also, to the few who stuck to me and those who gave me advice, I am forever grateful to you for pulling me back from the dump that I had been in. It makes me happy to have friends who supports me and encourages me when I am down. *runs back to the flock*

Fire

The building is burning. Heat and smoke filled the air around me. Choking I try looking for a way of escape. But it seemed like I am cut off from every direction. Alone, all I can do is wait for help to come. But how many would actually dare to brave a burning building? Knowing the pain the fire could inflict and the suffocation due to lack of air, most would run away from it. We are drilled to run away from fire since young. Who in their right mind, with no firefighter experience, would run into a building that is so near collapsing?

Pretty Colours

Nodame Cantabile : Finale

I sure love this part of the ending song...
2 more episodes till the anime ends...
I wonder what will happen...
Chiaki : Don't give up on us! Not just yet!
Nodame : *okay, i don't really know what's on her mind*

Kaze to Oka no Ballad by Real Paradise
Chorus :

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
kioku yubi no aida surinukete mo
kokoro nara koko ni tatte
soshite ONCE AGAIN arukidasu yo

I gain everything and I lose everything.
Everything is slipping through my fingers,
but my heart is still standing here,
and once again, I will start walking.

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
shiroi PEEJI dake ga nokosarete mo
kono mune kibou no hi wa ALWAYS BRIGHT

I gain everything and I lose everything.
When I'm left with a blank page,
the fire of hope in my heart is always bright.

Waiting means...

Steadfastness, that is holding on.
Patience, that is holding back.
Expectancy, that is holding the face up.
Obedience, that is holding one's self in readiness to go or do.
Listening, that is holding quiet or still so as to hear.

Nodame OST : Beautiful Sunset

Giving Thanks

A great sense of joy overcame me and I suddenly feel like jumping for joy and shouting out praises for God. The day spent in doing nothing is actually good for me. I realised that I have been neglecting myself quite a bit lately to the point of exhaustion. Not physically nor mentally but I have not been taking good care of my emotional and spiritual needs at all. I did not idle about the entire day of course but my time was given to God. I realised also that though I am busy with studies, time spent with God actually gives me the energy to continue, it is not a waste of time at all! And when I have finally laid down all that has been worrying me lately and commit it into His hands, a sense of peace filled me... Things are starting to look up now. Praise God indeed!

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ, His Son

And now let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let the poor say, "I am rich
because of what the Lord has done for us"

Hanasakeru Seishonen

So, while trying to kill time and not fall into emoness as I tend to sometimes, I found this anime. It revolves around a girl called Kajika Burnsworth who is the daughter of a business tycoon in NYC. She has a very interesting past and her lineage if exposed, could bring about change and scandal to a small country call Raginei. Because her father is the illegitimate son of the past king of Raginei, King Mahaty, she is now the next in line to the throne of Raginei. And because of that, her father, Harry Burnsworth, wanted to find someone for her who would protect her no matter what the consequences in the event of his death. So he came up with a game for Kajika. He picked out 3 guys that would be her future husband, Eugene de Volkan, Prince Rumaty Ivan of Raginei and Carl Rosenthal. Each picked for their unique status and personality, Kajika is supposed to discover these 3 and to pick out one of them as her future husband. Fang Li-Ren, a brotherly like figure to Kajika is to keep watch over her as things unfold. However, it is getting harder for him to suppress his feelings for her as he sees her meeting up with the 3 candidates her father picked. Although predictable, the anime has a nice twist to it involving the political turmoil in Raginei. It is here itself when Kajika was pursued by an assassin and is at the brink of death that she realises the one person she could not live without. She finally realised how love really feels like. And in the end too, it is revealed that the 3 that her father picked are all not suitable candidates for her anyway. They are used as a measure to Li-Ren, the boy who was groomed from young to succeed Harry as Kajika's protector.

Of course from the start I was rooting for Li-Ren all the way considering how good looking he is... Although the other 3 has something about them that makes them special too, but Li-Ren is still the best!!!!! Haha... At least it takes my mind of things when I am drooling over anime guys and engrossed by the storyline. Takes my mind off worrying for others when I have not even dealt with my own problems myself... Now to go looking for another anime...

Maid Maiden, Monday

New work by Kaoru! By some twisted fate Alivia landed herself working as a 'tweeny' maid at the rich Bennett's house. She has to pretend to be his girlfriend at school while looking for her prince who had helped her years before. Only 4 chapters are in this volume so it's kinda hard to see how the characters feel about each other. Could Alivia be so deluded about her prince that she does not see the good in Bennett? Could Bennett be in love with another girl but is using Alivia to hide the fact? Could Shawn be Alivia's prince or is it someone else? So many questions unanswered! I can't wait for the next volume to be out!

Where Am I Heading?

After listening to the soundtrack of this movie for so long, I finally went in search for the movie. Some of the songs like "Entering Booty Town" and "Buddha's Delight" got me perplexed. I mean, what kind of movie like Music And Lyrics that would have songs like these? But after watching I understood that it was just songs from another character in the movie who is a pop singer... The songs that really dig deep into my soul would be songs like "Dance With Me Tonight", "Don't write Me Off" and of course the famous "Way Back Into Love". Hugh Grant has a great voice... His voice is the kind that can make millions of girls go crazy over, including me...! *swoon*

Dance With Me Tonight by Hugh Grant

It's been so long
Since I've known right from wrong
Got no job
Sometimes I just sit down and sob
Wondering if anything will go right
Oh will you dance with me tonight?

When the sun departs
I feel a hole down in my heart
Put on some shoes
Come down here
And listen to the blues
Wondering if anything will go right
Oh will you dance with me tonight?

I'm looking at you, you're looking at me
We're the only two off the dance floor
Do you see what I see?

Two broken lives
Working in harmony
Might make for a decent time
So get up and dance with me

I know that it seems that the grass will grow
Better on the other side of the barbwire fence
But that other side is not in sight
So I'm fine with what I have now
If you'll dance with me tonight

What's the point of life if risk is just a board game?
You roll the dice but you're just hoping that the rules change
What's the point if you can't bring yourself to say
The things you want to say
Like dance with my tonight

The characters in the movie really did a lot to reach their goal... Got me thinking back to Tuesday's bible study session. When I got to the question 'When have you had to persevere to reach a goal? What kept you going? How did this experience change you for the better?', I stoned... I thought back to the past 20 years of my life and I could not come up with an answer. Even though my family has faced financial difficulties in the past, I was not informed of it. It fact, my parents kept everything away from me and acted as if nothing has changed just so I would not get worried. Finding out about it a few years later, I realised how sheltered I am. It's time for me to really do something back for my parents and for myself... But what if their wishes and mine are so different that it could not work out together? Well, I just gotta pray about it... By the way, what is my goal in life again?

Passing of Years...

Went back to Ipoh and Penang for CNY as usual... Can't say I enjoy the hols as much as I should have. CNY just lost it's lustre for me... Maybe it is because I am not a child anymore. The excitement over the festivities, new clothes and food just died in me... Going back to my parents' hometown usually means playing games on the gameboy, playing fireworks at night and then cards right after that. I had to beg my parents to let me stay up late. Now, I just laze around the house and sleep even earlier than my parents. There's practically nothing for me to do.


I'm turning 21 this year while my cousins are either married or much younger than me and my niece and nephews are not even 10 years old yet. They are playing make believe games and running around the house shouting at maximum volume. I don't even know where they get all those energy! In some ways I envy them. Being older in the elders eyes means I have to act according to my age. I have to sit and look prim and proper. No more shouting and running around the house playing tag. Boy do I miss those days...


Bought some new foam stamps and crafting materials when I went to The Gardens on Friday. It seems these are the things that can really put a smile on my face. I already have gift ideas running through my head waiting to be made into reality. I find solace in crafting. While my thoughts are wandering, my hands would be diligently working. The same applies to dish washing... And eventhough 8 of my guppies, the whole tank by the way, died, at least I know I still have my betta fish and the cute little lobster here to accompany me...