Of Pain Caused Through Selfishness

Arrgh! The anticipation is killing me! Kaoru said that the volume after Septenary will be the end of Helios Eclipse but...I can't stand it! Why must there be a storyline where the main guy/girl character must be with the one they don't love in order to save their family/kingdom and leave the ones they love in despair? Helios is INDEED and IDIOT. I'm sure things will be even better if he rejects Countessa and puts his trust in Mineko. But NO, he has to do things his own way and mess things up, getting all jealous about Louis, ignoring everyone around him and hurting Mineko badly to make her want to leave and return from where she came. If he's still an idiot in the 8th, I'll be tearing the pages apart in frustration. Sigh... Why the ones you love must cause you the most pain...? Poor Mineko. I can’t even begin to understand how she must have felt. >.<

Sonnet 29

My Favourite Sonnet So Far...

When, in disgrace with fortune and men's eyes,

I all alone beweep my outcast state

And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries

And look upon myself and curse my fate,

Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,

Featured like him, like him with friends possess'd,

Desiring this man's art and that man's scope,

With what I most enjoy contented least;

Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,

Haply I think on thee, and then my state,

Like to the lark at break of day arising

From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate;

For thy sweet love remember'd such wealth brings

That then I scorn to change my state with kings.

Last Day To Go Wild!

Sigh... I will surely miss the fun times here in Ipoh. It is a place where I've never felt disappointment before, something KL always present to me. We've heard this line a thousand times and probably got bored of it : Never ask what others can give you but ask what you can give them instead. However, each of us has our own lives to live and I guess it's too much to ask for someone to sacrifice their time and effort for ourselves. So it's amazing what this certain girl has done for this friend of hers. She is always there during the lonely times, there to share the craziness and all in all, she has done what others have not and this certain friend of hers is forever grateful and is glad that they are friends. We sure had some fun times together... And I'm saddened that it had to end. We spent so little time together these past 4 years and still she is the one person that I am most comfortable with. We talked about anything and everything and always had a good time together, be it shopping (I'm the one doing most of it...), gaming (We build up our characters with each other's help and support), sightseeing (Like what we did today), digging our hands into mountains of stamps or just hanging out in my room laughing like idiots over jokes about little things. I sound more like a lesbian than anything now, but let me assure everyone that I am perfectly clear of my sexuality. I am a girl through and through. XD But to her I am forever grateful, she handled my whims and intensity for my obsessions with such patience that I am often surprised that I have the good fortune of knowing her.

Today (Or more accurately, yesterday), we went to some limestone caves just for the heck of it and walked till our feet are sore but still, it was a sight to see. Surrounded by nature's beauty, we reminisced about the past... I used to come here when I'm young about 7-8 years back... It sure has been a long time. We look very conspicuous since most who came here are the elderly and families. Two young girls singing Phantom of The Opera songs might look silly in contrast. Hehe... We even had lunch (sandwiches prepared by her mom) by the roadside with the doors to the car opened. Definitely something new we've never experienced before.

Kek Lok Tong

Truly a masterpiece of Mother Nature.

Waterfall can be seen clearly due to the heavy rain yesterday?

Tree branches... Spooky.

It's like a small meadow, sheltered from the rest of the world, a place of fantasy...

Limestone formations.

Limestone formations.

Ling Sen Tong

This is near the tortoise pond...

Sam Poh Tong : I love this archway... And it's my favourite picture of the day!

We went shopping after that because I just have to get my hands on Kyou Kara Maou Season 3! *sigh in contentment* I just can't get enough of the handsome guys in Shin Makoku. Gunter!!!!! Next stop : Nodame Cantabile...! And of course, as this would probably be an outing we have together for a long time to come, we had to go RO-ing to let go of our stress and just kill some monsters with our super awesome characters (thief - mine) and (archer - hers)! What an exhausting day indeed... Time for my beauty sleep! It'll be a long ride tomorrow morning. ~Ja

The Phanton of The Opera, An ACS Production

Okay, so I decided to brave this very alien school and pay RM 10 to watch a school play of my FAVOURITE musical. Am I disappointed? To tell the truth, it could have been better. Christine is fabulous. The Phantom, well, Gerard Butler still has a very strong hold on me so obviously others would not suffice though this Phantom is not as bad as I thought he would be. He still carried the songs I like quite OK though at times pitchy. Raoul, I never really liked his character anyway so it doesn't matter if he totally can't sing. La Carlotta, Madam Giry, Meg Giry and a range of other supporting characters are good. The props are AWESOME! Quite funny at parts but all in all I've decided that my RM 10 is worth it. A night out with friends and an entertaining play. I can't wait to take out my CD and listen to the songs though. Gerard Butler's voice as Phantom is just so...amazing! Gotta look harder for the DVD. I must have it!

Another long day tomorrow. I booked See Pui for the full day because I'm going back to KL on Sunday and I wanna have as much fun as possible first before going back. This time, WE MUST TAKE PICTURES!!!!! Whee.....

Midnight Sun: Edward's Version of Twilight

I read a partial draft of midnight sun and FELL IN LOVE with Edward all the more! This is how we can get to know the man behind the cool demeanor. His raging love for a mere human girl, his desire for her blood, the fire burning his throat from the smell of her blood, his silence and mood swings. Everything made sense. Instead of reading it from Bella's point of view, we're reading it from Edward's instead. How I wish Stephenie Meyer would continue writing it. It would definitely be really sad and disappointing if the book is not finished just because of the leaks online...

Here's where you can get the draft from :

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/midnightsun.html

Self Inflicted Pain

Gah... I should not have made myself watch Twilight again... It almost killed me. All the wrong dialogues, facial expressions, and hello, the Cullens cooking Italian for Bella? What has the world become...? It's a catastrophe! Or maybe it's just me memorising the book too much that every single detail from the movie that deviates from the book annoy me endlessly. Tormented me. And Edward is a gentleman, one you can't find anywhere nowadays, he is not rude! Why did Robert Pattinson make my Edward into such a rude person... His "Fine. I guess I'll just have to endure it," is so COLD! Edward would never say something like that. His reply was "Nevermind, then. I can see that it's impossible. Thank you so much for your help.". See the difference? And the part where he makes Bella says the word 'vampire' out loud? Urgh... The book is supposed to be centred upon the two of them, their feelings for each other, the connection, finding love though they're in two totally different worlds. The connection is not there. Every aspect of Edward is off... I guess I'm just an obsessed perfectionist. But movies made from books are never good. It is always a disappointment. I'll stick to my own imagination for now, my favourite characters portrayed by others is never a pleasure to watch.

The End, But Do They Live Happily Ever After?

Wow. I guess I pulled another all-nighter just to finish those remaining 30 chapters... It was worth it though. Tsukasa realised that the new girl is not the one to patch up the hole he has when he lost his memory (Thank goodness...) and after a knock on the head from a baseball ball that Tsukushi threw at him, he regains his memories of her and starts to enjoy the 1 year freedom his mother gave them. But Tsukasa decided to go to NY after his graduation after all and proposes to Tsukushi. Too bad she decides to stay in Japan and wait those 4 years out for him. However, their bond is strong and nothing can overcome their love for each other! Such a happy ending it was. If my eyes are not so dry and stinging now from the lack of rest and sleep, I'll probably be crying. Anyway, this love story is definitely heart warming but I will definitely never gush over the main guy character... I mean, who can ever resist Hanazawa Rui!? Compared to Tsukasa, he is gentle and attentive, the one who always encourages Tsukushi and supported her through all the hard times. He really does love her, but as he said, seeing her smile is already enough for him. Such a sad ending for Rui! Sigh... I can't believe I finally finished this manga after 4 years from when I started reading it. It is a satisfaction in itself. Sitting on my bed in this dark room, I'm wondering should I take a short nap now or later in the afternoon. Oh well, lets see which wins out, my resolve or my laziness. I'm guessing it's a 50-50 chance though. =P

Heart Wrenching Sadness

10 CHAPTERS FULL OF IT! What am I gonna do!? Sigh... I reached the part where Tsukasa decides to give up everything to be with Tsukushi. But what happens? He was stabbed by an enemy of the Domyouji family and lost all his memory ON TSUKUSHI! Now, being a real impatient girl I skipped 10 chapters just to check if Tsukasa has regained his memory yet or I'll be reading even more unpleasant pages. He did. But it did not change the fact that there're 10 chapters in between! Oh, what am I gonna do... This will be painful to endure... Sigh... Gosh, I think he even fell for another girl in between... This is seriously MAD! T_T Why is the road of true love never smooth!? Arrgh... Away with it! I'm reading both chapters simultaneously... I wonder, if a guy loses his memory and fell for a girl during this period, what would happen when he regained his memories and remembered the girl he loved? How about the girl he just fell for? Wow... This is really dramatic... I hope it's not harsh on the new girl.

Otaku In The Making? Or Am I Already One?

Since I finished the 78 episodes of Kyou Kara Maou I can't wait to start on another anime. And so, I went on to watching Flame of Recca, which took some time since I went back to KL for a few days to help my family move. We're moving to another house in the same area since the house we're renting for the time being is sold by the owner. After that, well... I started on Rave and am in the middle of it but I am kinda torn at the moment... While watching Rave, I am also reading books from The Age of Five trilogy by Trudi Canavan (Her Black Magician trilogy is so good I had to read her other trilogy as well. Just looking for the last book from the trilogy to buy.), reading Hana Yori Dango online at One Manga (I stopped reading a long time ago due to some reasons too long winded to be typed out and now, I am back obsessing about how utterly HOT the members of the F4 are - Manga version of course, the Taiwanese actors make me sick! >.<), swapping, practicing amigurumi and levelling up my thief character in Ragnarok Online (I want an assassin!). With so much to do, how is a girl gonna find time to blog!? Oh, I have to buy Season 3 of Kyou Kara Maou too! Can't have enough of Gunter!!!!! <3>

A lot have been happening in my life and there's just too much to tell, too little patience to type out. XD Can’t wait for Friday though! My friend and I are going to watch a Phantom of The Opera play by her school. Phantom of The Opera is of course my favourite musical of all time. It is dark and menacing yet full of emotion. And the songs? Absolutely perfect!!! Can't wait! Hope it is not a disappointment though. I'll be going back to KL this Sunday and I'll miss Ipoh so much. I sure have a lot more freedom here than I do with my parents. However, Uni is starting soon and well, gotta make preparations! I'm gonna miss all my gangs in VI, we had a lot of good times together albeit the backstabbing, emoing and heartbreaks that are all in the past now. I feel like I am finally out of my cocoon. This time, I'll be flying up high into the sky, making my own way in this vast and beautiful world called Earth.

Otaku (おたく/オタク) is a Japanese term used to refer to people with obsessive interests, particularly anime, manga, and video games according to wikipedia. So what's the verdict?