To Sui Yen...

Dearest sister, although I did complain a lot about staying with you, (it was forcing me to take a sniff of your smelly bolster and making me give you a goodnight kiss that brought them up) I feel really blessed to have you by my side when I am going through trying times. You could not imagine how much better I have been after those few days of spending some quality time with you. Our late night talks and crazy times really did much good for me emotionally and spiritually. There are a lot of things I have decided to do but it was so hard to actually put into action. Your constant reminders of having faith in God and trusting Him with my life really did wonders to me. You kept saying I am really like you before and I hope that God would use this time of mine here in small town Kampar to mold me into a person worthy of Him. A person like you. I always keep my emotions in check, somehow I can never show others how much I love them and appreciate them, so when you showed me your blog post, I could do no more but to give you a short hug. But inside, I was really happy. Happy that you would actually took aside some time to think of me amidst your busy schedule, happy that for once, I truly felt that someone, aside from God, actually wanted me around. For as long as I had remember I have always had this little speck of loneliness deep inside my heart. Although I know that God is always here for me, I needed something more, something I can touch and feel. And because I am like this, He blessed me with great friends that I met here in Kampar who walked beside me and supported me. Thank you so much for being here for me. I missed the times we spent together too. But we are going to spend more time together after CNY k?

O Heavenly Father, thank you for everything...

Over the mountain and the sea
Your river runs with love for me
And I will open up my heart
And let the healer set me free
I'm happy to be in the truth
And I will daily lift my head
For I will always sing of when Your love came down

I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever
I could sing of Your love forever

Reminders...

I need to be reminded :

• to always keep God's Word in my heart that I will never fall into temptation.
• to always think twice, thrice, four times before making a decision.
• to always put others first and not be so selfish.
• to stop indulging in self pity.
• to slow down and look at the people around me instead of rushing ahead in life.
• that no matter what, God loves ME! He truly does!
• that I am never alone... NEVER! God is with me!
  
• to come out of my own comfort zone, to learn, to grow...
  
• that God always has a plan for me. Let His Will be done.
• to be more confident in life.
• to be patient.
• to be silent.
  

Fame

Out Here On My Own by Irene Cara

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in.
Make believin' is hard alone,
Out here on my own

We're always provin' who we are
Always reachin' for the risin' star
To guide me far
And shine me home
Out here on my own

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Until the morning sun appears
Making light of all my fears
I dry the tears
I've never shown
Out here on my own

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in
I may not win
But I can't be thrown
Out here on my own
On my own

Something's Wrong...

My mood has been going downhill lately...
I can't really get myself excited over anything. Even smiling takes up much more effort than it used to.
I can't focus on the work at hand. I have a lot of work due and I just can't get anything started!
The projects that I wanted to take up for myself are left hanging because I don't have enough equipment.
I'm losing my appetite. I can't finish off my meals and when I do I feel like throwing up.
My sleep time is seriously messed up, it was never normal to begin with. Naps in the afternoons and long late nights.
What is happening to me?
Seriously...

Footloose...

Big town kid Ren McCormack moves to a small town. The local government had banned dancing, music and booze. But Ren and his friends wanted to have a senior prom so they have to convince the people that dancing is not bad influence...

Footloose by Kenny Loggins

Been working so hard
I'm punching my card
Eight hours, for what
Oh, tell me what I got
I've got this feeling
That time's just holding me down
I'll hit the ceiling
Or else I'll tear up this town
Now I gotta cut

Loose, footloose
Kick off your Sunday shoes
Please, Louise
Pull me offa my knees
Jack, get back
C'mon before we crack
Lose your blues
Everybody cut footloose

You're playing so cool
Obeying every rule
Dig way down in your heart
You're yearning, burning for some
Somebody to tell you
That life ain't passing you by
I'm trying to tell you
It will if you don't even try
You can fly if you'd only cut

Loose, footloose
Kick off your Sunday shoes
Oowhee, Marie
Shake it, shake it for me
Whoa, Milo
C'mon, c'mon let's go
Lose your blues
Everybody cut footloose

We got to turn you around
You put your feet on the ground
Now take a hold of your ball
I'm turning it

Loose, footloose
Kick off your Sunday shoes
Please, Louise
Pull me offa my knees
Jack, get back
C'mon before we crack
Lose your blues
Everybody cut footloose

Numbers Count

When in doubt, go to a friend.
Two heads are definitely better than one.
Or three.
Or four!
When faced with confusion.
And conflicts.
And I just do not know which is the route I should take.
Friends can be so much more than a listening ear.
They remind you of your principles.
They strengthen you when you find yourself wavering.
I cannot imagine myself without them.
Now I am free from the bindings that hold me.
Feeling so light I almost felt like I am flying.
It's amazing how a few minutes can make such a difference...

Pride and Prejudice

Ahh, the delights of modern technology. I finally acquired the movie that I have been dying to watch it since it was shown in the cinemas but never did have the chance. An adaptation from one of my favourite books of all time, Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. Austen's books are the epitome of classical romance. With witty (and long) dialogues coupled with the portrayal of strong emotions and conflicts felt by the characters in the story, it is indeed a book I could sit down with for long hours...

Pride and Prejudice starts with the sentence, 'It is a truth universally acknowledged, that a single man in possession of good fortune, must be in want of a wife.' It follows the life of Elizabeth Bennet and the culture of the aristocratic society of early 19th century England. Along the road, sensible, lively and witty Elizabeth had to deal with others' perception of her upbringing in a not-so-well-to-do family as well as issues of marriage and moral conduct.

Proud Mr Darcy is exceptionally disagreeable and as he thought himself to be above his company, was rude to all and earned a very bad name for himself. His feelings were so well hidden that when he finally expressed himself, and very ardently too I must say, Elizabeth rejected him with little attempt to civility for in her mind she already have a preconceived judgment about him and his sense of superiority to her.

It is his pride that kept him from her and it is her prejudice that kept them apart until Darcy lets go of his pride and showed her how much he could change because of his love for her. Elizabeth too realised how different the real person is compared to her perception of him from stories she heard from others.

Although I love Keira Knightley for she is awesome in classic roles, I must say the movie does not do the book justice at all, most adaptations from books are very much likely to fail...

My mind is about blank now and I think it is time for me to stop blogging and to finally hit the sack... *yawns*