Apologies

If I had a ringgit for the number of times I read the words "I'm Sorry" from you I'll be rich by now. Sorry is not a cure. You say it when you truly do mean it. The words now meant nothing to me anymore when texted. When something is done for too many times a person can get immune and this is not an exception. But just so you know, you are forgiven but what you have done will not be forgotten. I read a book before about male and female attitudes before and now believe it true. A female only talks to be heard. To have a listening ear. Someone to vent, to pour out to. We do not need solutions to our problems. Especially mine. I can solve them myself. I am capable of that at least. I do not need you to solve mine...

Birthday

I've been having a real bad impression on the day that I was born on... I really hate it. It has never been a happy day for me for quite some years now... But my I had good friends. Friends who wanted to change this impression of mine... They made me really happy today... And I am very touched. That they care enough to do all these for me. With friends like this who needs guys right? But indeed feelings can never be controlled. I do feel slightly sad today and I think everyone who's into the secret will know why... But I'll not let that stop me from enjoying the day... I've been sad for some days now but luckily I fould out about something that made me happy before the big day today. I received the results from an English test I took from the University of New South Wales. I got a High Distinction for it and that really made my day. I've been dreaming of getting it for a few years now. Twice before I got a Distinction only. But this time I'm top 1% of the country. I've really improved!!!!! I'll definitely try to enjoy the rest of the night. Although there's always one wish I'll never get, it never stopped me from wishing... Pen out!

Tired Feet

Wow... Its been so long since I went shopping and this time we started walking from 10.30 am to 7.30 pm. How was that!? I even got a new top from Forever 21 as my birthday present from my uncle and his girlfriend. =) It's the blue off shoulder one. Tried on a few others as well. Fell in love with this dress from Summerset Bay but the size is too big for me and it's so expensive!!! RM 250! But I'm keeping an eye out for it. I LOVE that dress... Haha... I took a lot of pictures in the dressing rooms. Kinda enjoyed myself but I am so tired now... >.<

Lucky Stars

I love making lucky stars... But I never give them away. However, this time, I would like to send on their wishes to you... To wish you good luck in everything you do... For you to have a great future and that you can be forever happy in life. To find someone who will make you happy... To achieve great things. To reach great heights...

My Nightmares

Everyone has certain things that they are scared of. Some could not stand the sight of cats, some insects, and even the dark... Well, my worst fear would be of lizards. I have too many encounter with those critters. Especially when I open the door to my bathroom. They are always there to suprise me. So now, I could not even stand the sight of them. My second worst fear is of dentists. The sound of their drills and their fingers that kept pushing at your lips to make you open up your mouth... EEW! I had some really bad experience with dentists as well. Especially those from my old school, government dentists... And today I have an appointment with the dentist too. The cause is something that school dentist did to my teeth. She pulled out my wisdom tooth and chipped my front one. So I had to get a bridge whis cost about 1k+ and my chipped tooth which was covered by an outside dentist needs to be redone again. I hate dentists... And I hope that lady dentist from PA will lose all her teeth one day for all the terrible things she did to mine. Sigh... Why oh why does this have to happen to me!? T_T

Stress

Sigh... Trials are drawing near and I seemed nowhere ready to face it. My father is pressuring me every single second of the day and everytime that we talk, I get so stressed up I could cry. I don't know what else I could do but try my best but I could feel the clock ticking away and my time is running out... A friend told me that I could just do my best and not think of it, but it could never get out of my mind. It's stuck there. Like a drop of ink in water it spreads till it is seen no more but it's there... I'm so so so stressed up and my biology projects are all not done. Seems like there are so much that needs to be done, so much that needs to be read and brushed up on but I can't seem to focus!!!!! I get all tensed up whenever I'm stressed and can't do anything. I feel like I'm stepping on a mine. Once I take my foot off, it'll explode. And I'll be blown off to a million pieces. Blown by the wind in all different directions. And I am no more. My existence ceased and the world shall go on in peace...

Yearly Tradition?

I've always done this every year. Made a wishlist and put it inside an envelope... Then I'll open it up after I make next years wishlist... Don't know why I did it though... For fun maybe. ^_^